Silk Strangle

13 August 1973

Male

france

I discovered sex while i made an activity of painting silk and feeling this contact made me something special.
I needed this contact more and more, and special parts made me more feeling, like the neck wich needed this contact.
After it attracted me to tie more and more, and i begun to strangle, and ater to tie more hang me.
My parents found me a certain number of times hanged partially and i was absolutely not worrying of dying, only the immediate pleasure and my obsession was important. I knew i was risking to die, but it aroused me only more.
"normal" sex came only after, and i was passing the silk on my body when i felt that a special part tried to appeal to caress more with the silk, and only after i begun to masturbate, but fantasying to hang myself and girls, being a girl who is hanged by girls...

I'm hetero, only girls attract me, but the most sexy is the one with a silk rope and a willing victim.

I stopped hanging myself at puberty, adam's apple making it very uncomfortable, and i only hanged again long yeard after, trying a large fabric of silk, wich stopped the pains at this part but let all others sensations.

For years i thought i was the only one because something like this, i was'nt able to imagine that others could be son strange.

With the begining of internet i found Annabelle's Fantasy, Dolcett and others Dark Fetish sites, and it was a revelation.
Since that i dared share this pleasures with some girlfriends and made them like it so much.
The last one, was'nt event thougt about it, and i made her love it by creating desire in her neck and giving progressively her slowly stronger and stronger strangles.
Now for her too strangling and partial hangings while having sex are not only normal, but a needed part.

I'm still alive because while playing alone with hangings i put the feet on the ground again, just for one reason stronger than the wish of more while begining the black out: I want to do it again and again!

I fantasie to hang girls or me to the end, but i would be a waste, so few to share this with...especially girls!

Find men who are ready to go the all way is nearly easy, but girls who want to try being strangled, is rare. Even for only doing it just controled or the begining, for sexual arouse.

For me a girl with a noose aroud her neck is already enough for having very hard stimulation, if i know she has in her head to hang with. And even knowing it wont go all way, but only role play and just simulating.

a girl saying:
"I'm entierly Yours do what you want to me"

Hanging, strangling.
In RP, light force simulation, or real to the black out.

Beheading, but only the preparing part, until the moment where the axe, blade or guillotine cuts the head.
The gore part don't attracts me in real, but some pictures make it sexy, but really not in real. Only in RP!

For now i have so few time online that i cant do so much, but i'm preparing for when i will have time again.
speaking about our fantasies, what we feel inside, exploring this dark part in us, sharing pictures or histories (here, there is a huge collection of pictures and drawings in the albums already!!!)

Fisrt meet people with i can talk freely about this particular fantasies...
Other, meet girls who wish to play with their neck in my hands or my rope while or not having sex.

I can make discover "safely" the way of being strangled, step by step, to be sure that the experience will be a begining of a lot of others dark games.

I'm interested to having a slave, but for now it's not materialy possible. If it happends, i would be a progressive way. She will have to be a willing victim and really having the desire of offering her to where i can lead, being ready to die if i decide. She would know that i want still her after, that is her reason to live.
For now it's a far away fantasy, but may be one day...

I alway thought taht if i had a girl that when at a rope i tell her: "Now i will hang you by the neck until death", she answers sincerely: "Im ready" I would marry her!

And for the greatest waste, i had once this one, i wanted to marry and waited to upgrade my job situation to ask her hand (in reality i would ask her neck!), she was for me the best i could find, not only for this reason but for very stupid thind others than sex, it broke, but she was only 24, and we were together 2 for years. I made her taste this dark fantasies and she discovered how much it was in her.