I had been fascinated by hanging since at least the first grade.  I vividly remember loving a picture in our history book showing Nathan Hale with a noose around his neck.  I loved seeing any hanging on television or in movies.  There are a few a remember exciting me that I've never seen again. 

I eventually made a few clumsy attempts at seeing just what it felt like to hang.  I remember the first time I thought I could just put a rope around my neck secured to something ( I don't really remember what) and just pick my feet up and hang.  I obviously couldn't do that but was able to bend my knees, take a lot of my weight and choke myself. 

At age 12 I had been wanting to smoke cigars.  One night I saw "Hang 'Em High" on tv, then about the same time a picture in a movie magazine of a young man with a noose around his neck and a cigar in his mouth.  Then I had to try cigars and resolved to ramp up my hanging attempts!

I was a big kid so it was no problem buying some cigars.  It would have been 1973.  I tried my first one that night and loved it!  I was a natural and didn't choke or get sick or anything.  Of course I wasn't inahaling which is the proper way to smoke a cigar anyway.

The big moment came the next day I was home alone.  I had tied up a real hemp noose and had it up in my basement room.  I was smoking another cigar and checking myself out in the mirror with then noose around my neck.  That and the aticipation of what I thought would be really hanging myself had my cock throbbing hard!

To hang myself I had it set up in our laundry room.  A belt from a robe for the noose tied to a pipe along a wall.  I had a sturdy bench under the noose so I could step off to hang.  I was smoking my cigar in the noose, taking the noose off and putting the cigar in the ashtray and went in to hang.  I got ready and stepped off the bench to hang for as long as I dared.  My back was against the wall so I wasn't quite fully dangling.  After just a few seconds I got my feet back on the bench and quickly loosened the noose.  It hurt and choked me really hard but I loved the rush!

After hanging I went back to the real noose to smoke my cigar some more.  I could see my face was flushed from the hanging and my cock was about to blow my zipper out!  After just a little while I went back to hang again, this time taking it a little longer.  Then I repeated the whole thing one more time.  The third time, as I was getting the noose loose I felt something intense happening to my cock and got my pants down just in time to see myself shoot a huge wad!  At that moment I understood several things!

Before that first orgasm I had heard about cumming and jacking off but didn't really understand at all.  Now I knew just what those erections were for and it didn't take me long to figure out how to make it happen again!

It might have been a couple years before I heard or read that a man can have an orgasm from being hanged.  I had already learned that for myself.  It's no myth.  I can assure you that at least if it's a young man, that is aroused by the thought of being hanged and hard when it happens, nothing could stop him from cumming.

That day I was 12 and probably about to have that first one in my sleep at night in a wet dream, or maybe realizing it felt good to touch myself and going with it.  I'm sure it wasn't going to be long before I got that first one off.  There is no doubt that if I had really been being hanged to death I would have had an orgasm.

I know now just how dangerous that kind of self hanging was.   Back then I thought it always took a couple of minutes at least to pass out.  "Hang 'Em high" starts with Clint being hanged and surviving what would have been an impossibly long time.  No way someone hangs a man, watches the show and rides off, then another guy comes along in time to cut him down.  He'd be beyond reviving easily at least, probably completely dead.

My smoking fetish may have begun with that first orgasm since I had been excited by smoking the cigar as well.  If that didn't do it, a couple sexy older neighbor girls smoking cigarettes and a woman at the beauty salon where I got my hair cut made it stick.  Betsy at the salon was a sexy little brunette.  I had told her I was trying smoking and she offered me one of her cigarettes and actually coached me on how to learn to inhale.  She was hot and obviously enjoyed being naughty and corrupting a cute young guy.  Eventually everything kind of combined into my current fetishes.  Getting myself hanged by a sexy smoking lady!