Betty

Huffman

22 April 1984

Female

USA

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I am a pudgy 26 year old woman with a dark side. I am married, so I have to be discreet. Once, I was a normal, sweet and innocent young girl whom my parents could adore. Now, I find myself being pulled in a direction that would shock them and any other "normal" people.

Right now, I feel a need to be among the deviant.

Hanging, strangling, stabbing, shooting, impalement, rotting, decomposition.

One time I was in bed with this rough, older guy, who reached over to hold me tight. He ended up choking me a little by accident. Since, then I've been very much into asphyxiation things such as strangulation, bagging and hanging.

But then, the idea of DYING from said practices really got to me, and I began to imagine my limp and lifeless body being discovered sprawled out over my bed. Maybe the landlord busted into my apartment because of a stink.

Then I got married, and the fantasies subsided, but only a little bit. Now, they seem to come back stronger. I see myself being brutally murdered out of hatred, or lovingly killed by a lover for pleasure. I also think about hanging for a man who paid quite a bit of money to watch me.

Lately I've been getting into bloodier things, like shooting, stabbing, gutting and impaling.

Basically put, what began with a simple forearm pressing on my neck too tight, has culminated with various death fantasies.

And a big part of my fantasy includes the aftermath: being dumped like trash, decomposing, stinking. It's hot to go from a living being, to a "thing" breaking down.

I like to be slapped, and again, my fantasies took it too far. Sometimes, I find myself wondering what it would be like to be beaten--maybe to death.

Share ideas and fantasies, chat about whatever comes up, and possibly roleplay if we are on the same page.

As I said, I am married, so I'm not going to be meeting someone offline.