||::Cassie:: [[Catharsis]]||

16 May 1988

Female

wiscasset, maine, US

https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1221630054

You did not stumble upon my profile by accident, and it is no mistake that you are here reading these words. MY PROFILE IS HERE FOR THE SOLE PURPOSE OF REACHING OUT....OF SHOWING LOVE....and to bring a message to those who are crying out for help.....

These lyrics describe what i once was, describing the struggle i was going through for the majority of my life (The Block Party Massacre-"Nothing Left of me" lyrics):

"There's something dark inside me,
it's something i can't seem to chase,
slowly taking over....until there's nothing left of me

Can you imagine what it's like
to be trapped inside your mind,
everything you feel is right is wrong in everybody's eyes.....
AND YOUR ALWAYS ASKING WHY,
DO I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD DIE?
there's something missing from my life,
the darkness i don't try to fight,
it don't matter where i run, it don't matter where i hide,
CAUSE THE MONSTER THAT I'M RUNNING FROM IS LIVING HERE INSIDE....

Now try to picture what it's like,
to be completely numb inside..
trying to fake a normal life......"
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I didn't think there was an escape from the darkness that was living inside my heart, but through Jesus....I FOUND HOPE! AND LOVE!! HE WAS THE ONE WHO WAS MISSING FROM MY LIFE!


To those who have fallen victim to their fantasies, THERE IS A BETTER WAY!! NO MATTER WHERE YOU ARE OR WHAT YOU HAVE DONE, YOU ARE NEVER TO FAR GONE FOR GOD! You are LOVED! This is a call to the lost and broken, a call to the hopelessly shattered; a call to those whose pain has brought them to their knees when they felt they could no longer stand on their own. "Lord, you know the hopes of the helpless; please hear their cries and comfort them!" (Psalm 10:17). DON'T LET THEM LOSE HOPE and above all, do not lose yourselves in self-medication for these do not fix or solve the problems at hand but trust in GOD! "For the Lord does not abandon anyone forever. Though he brings grief, he also shows compassion according to the greatness of his unfailing love." (Lamentations 3:31-32). "Blessed are those who mourn, For they shall be comforted." (Matthew 5:4)

"There is one who see's it all,
He'll give you LIFE you never dreamed,
HE CAN SEE THE PAIN, underneath your skin....

There's so much more,
THIS IS NOT THE END!!!
it's all in your hands, DON'T THROW IT AWAY!
a beautiful life, WITH SO MUCH TO GIVE,
the image of God, underneath your skin...."

Seventh Day Slumber-"Missing Pages"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tdFPd2YAeck

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When the darkness closes in and your heart begins to break, just know you don't have to fight these wars alone. All the tears, all the pain, and the broken wings that time never heals; His wings shall prevail as His hands lift you higher. But still you find the darkest corner to hide your face, just praying for Him to stop the pain, just praying this suffering will end. And our Heavenly Father says,

"My dear child, NOTHING can seperate you from My love (Romans 8:37-39) and your life is worth more to me than you will ever know; even the hairs on your head are numbered (Matthew 10:30). In your times of stress and tribulation, My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest (Exodus 33:14). I will never leave you nor forsake you (Hebrews 13:5) so do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you (Isaiah 43: 1-3). So in your time of need, in your time of pain, humble yourself beneath My Mighty hand and cast all your anxieties upon me, BECAUSE I LOVE AND CARE FOR YOU!" (1 Peter 5:6-7) So be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for I will be with you wherever you go (joshua 1:9) and I will keep you strong until the end" (1 corinthians 1:8)
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I have returned to this site to HELP others....: there is always light at the end of the tunnel, but remember, not all tunnels are straight....
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I believe that everyone has a loving, gentle soul and i want to encourage people not to harden their hearts to the words on my profile. Love and light will pierce through the darkness, making the shadows of temptation hide in fear. THERE IS, AND WILL ALWAYS BE HOPE!! Do not lose that spark of light and do not give up on this world. Child abuse, depression, mental illness, pain, broken and lost love; there are so many painful trials i know you have been through, but so much more to live for! The pain is only temporary and the life that we live is very short.

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I personally know the pain of feeling like a failure, feeling like my life didn't amount to much and i always thought of myself as unlovable. I struggled with depression, sexual abuse as a child, and have delved into some very disturbing thoughts because of circumstances in my life. I hated myself, i felt worthless, and was ultimately giving up on life....

But slowly, the realization sank in.....i have done so many destructive things that i could never take back but truth is, HE STILL LOVES AND FORGIVES US! AND HIS LOVE NEVER FAILS!!! It breaks His heart to see us hurting, to see us suicidal, depressed, struggling with darkness and temptations. He wants us to come to Him when we are troubled; "Come to me all who are weary and burdened, and i will give you rest" (Mathew 11:28).

These desires that i struggled with since i was a child have almost disappeared in it's entirety, and i feel an EXTREME peace inside my soul that has never existed before. Everything about life feels so much more beautiful, all those who are struggling...i want you to know that God loves and cares about you.

More than likely there are things about yourself that you would like to change. Maybe its your looks or your financial situation or the color of your skin. Whatever it is, in Apostle Paul's words in 1st Corinthians, "don't let it trouble you." YOU ARE IMPORTANT TO GOD and He's got your back! Your identity as His child doesn't depend on being handsome, beautiful or smart but rather, IT'S WHO YOU ARE INSIDE THAT'S TRULY IMPORTANT! Before we were born, HE KNEW each and every one of us BY NAME (Jeremiah 1:5) AND HE HAS PROMISED ALL OF US that he has a PLAN FOR OUR LIVES, TO GIVE US HOPE AND A FUTURE (Jeremiah 29:11). I know times are tough, but don't lose heart. Just close your eyes and TRUST--IN--HIM ♥

I care about you as well. I love every person i meet, even those who are hostile towards others, i have it in my heart that i want to reach out and save everyone. IF ANYONE IS REALLY STRUGGLING WITH THEIR THOUGHTS, PLEASE FEEL FREE TO MESSAGE ME....i have done so many screwed up things to myself and have scars that will never fade for as long as i live. I know how it feels to have thoughts that are so dark, that they scare you....to the point where you question if you would actually kill in reality....there is hope

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"each person is tempted when they are dragged away by their own evil desire and enticed. Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death" --James 1:14-15

To explain this verse, a person may allow a wrong desire to develop in their heart. if they KEEP THINKING ABOUT IT, that wrong desire may become VERY STRONG. Then, if the opportunity presents itself, they may act upon the bad desire they have been contemplating.
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""For all those who suffer, take heart in knowing that one day our pain will have a purpose"

--Show them the light of Christ and LET THEM KNOW THAT THERE IS HOPE for those whose fantasies they can no longer control. It's scary when you get to the point where FANTASY IS NO LONGER ENOUGH and you crave going beyond. But just know that once you kill, you can never turn back time. GOD LOVES US ALL and He can take it away if you give Him a chance and let Christ into your hearts! God KNOWS what you are going through and He wants nothing more than to wrap you in His wings and GIVE YOU PEACE!

Isaiah 41:10
“Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.
Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you.
I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.”